Wrecked on the Road of Life - Faces in the Mirror

This morning as I was driving along, I had something happen to me that has has wrecked me ever since. And it will for quite a while. I saw a man get killed.

As I was driving along, I happened to glance in the rearview mirror and I saw people. Lots of people. Driving behind me, next to me, all around me, with blank, emotionless stares. Long faces with far off expressions. The thought immediately came to my mind, "Faces in the Mirror." Where are these faces going? Faces in the mirror. Unknown, countless, endless faces. Each with a story, each with a history, each with a name. All in need of a Savior.

"What's his name? Where is he headed? What are his dreams? What are his pains?" Faces.

The Lord spoke to me. "Mark, these are my people. These are my children. Have you witnessed to them? Have you shared your story with them? How have you represented me TODAY?" Sometimes we are so naive and hold hard to the mantra "Preach the gospel at all times and if necessary, use words." I'm not discounting the power of love, truth and testimony but the apostle Paul tells us to "Preach the Word!" and that "faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God." Have I been courageous and talked about my King today? I was very convicted by that thought "faces in the mirror" and I meditated on it for several minutes.

After about 10 minutes of driving along at about 70 mph, I happened to glance in the rearview mirror again and there was a middle-aged man on his motorcycle right on my tail. I didn't think too much about it, but as the lane opened up next to me, he passed me on his bike at about 80 mph. He was an african american and out for a morning cruise, enjoying his ride. He had a sweet red Harley and he opened it up as he passed. I did think to myself that "he's driving a little crazy, especially with his helmet strapped on to the seat behind him." As he passed me, he sat back a little bit and let his left hand and arm rest on his lap while accelerating with his right hand. And then it happened. I'm not sure what occurred. I don't know if he hit a pot hole or someone swerved into his lane, regardless the results were horrific. He slammed into the concrete barrier. As everyone slowed down or pulled over, that thought "Faces in the mirror" hammered my heart. I passed him as it was pretty obviously that he had just died as he lay motionless on his back sprawled out in the road. I couldn't help but be torn up over the incident, and I'm certainly not over it yet.

An unknown man just met his Maker. A husband, a dad, a son or a friend, just died.
Did he believe in God? He does now.
Does he have regrets about his life here on earth? No undoing those decisions.
Had he kissed his wife goodbye and told her he loved her this morning? That opportunity won't occur again.
What choices could he have made to alter his life?
I could have prayed for him when I saw him...would it have changed the outcome?

What would he tell you and me now?

Work harder? Make more money? Spend more Saturdays golfing?

Or would he say that the greatest things in life are those things that are eternal. That Jesus Christ is the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords and that 2000 years ago He was despised and rejected and hung on the cruel cross and that all of time has a pinnacle point, that of the resurrection of the Son of Man. Would this unknown man now tell us to spend every opportunity to speak of Christ because he now has an intimate reality of a Christless eternity?

"Lord, be with this man's family. Comfort them. I pray that your name would be glorified in some way. Use this event to transform my thinking and ignite me to speak out your name to those around me, not counting the cost nor being ashamed of the Name. Amen."

A Much Overdue Update

We've had such a busy month that I realized that I'm long overdue for an update on our plans to move to Johannesburg, South Africa. We continue to see God's hand in so many ways. We see him leading us, directing us and guiding us. His clarion call is so clear in our lives.

• My left shoulder continues to rehabilitate well. I'm looking at possibly switching over to a more holistic Physical Therapy facility here in Champaign. I have an hour and a half evaluation meeting with them next Saturday
• My lower back continues to give me issues periodically. I started going to the chiropractor, but that seemed to make it worse. I started PT on my lower back to strengthen the core. It doesn't hurt constantly, but the discomfort does come and go

I cannot wait: I leave for Johannesburg, South Africa in a week and a half! (Feb 14-26) It's come up on me so fast that I hardly feel prepared. This will be quite an upcoming week preparing for the 2 day children's conference that we will be holding. I'll be sharing on the theme "The Baptism of the Holy Spirit." I'm looking forward to getting a clearer picture of the ministry there and all that we will be doing with Blessman Ministries Inc. (www.blessmanministries.org) We continue to believe the Lord is leading us to move there as long-term missionaries in 2013. We met with our realtor this past week. Looks like we'll be putting our home on the market as soon as I get back. My mom has graciously invited us to live with her if our house sells before we are set to leave. She just put a big addition on her house, so there should be plenty of room. We are already starting to thin out our belongings and get our home ready for the market. It's been been quite a project so far. Found a great way to sell stuff though: a garage sale page on Facebook. Stuff sells really fast and at reasonable prices. It's like craigslist, but on speed. I sell stuff on the website in literally 5 minutes. It's as if there are people just waiting for you to post your stuff. 

Cleaning out my office

It's been difficult letting go. Letting go of my books was probably the hardest part so far. I just donated several hundred this morning to a local agency that sells them to provide grants for adoptions. I've been realizing that I really value all of my books (I've been a collector for almost 20 years). It's the one thing that I've been hanging on to. Everything else I don't care about, but this is the one thing that's been tough. I wonder what you would hold on to if you were in my shoes?

I still can't fathom moving 1/2 around the globe to serve in ministry. It's overwhelming at times, and quite natural in another sense. Jenn and I sense that we are going to be involved in something that the Lord has been preparing us to do for years. We'll be helping to feed 5000 orphans a solid meal each day. We'll be helping to lead (with Dr Jim and Beth Blessman) the 8-10 missions teams that come from the US each year. We'll be helping to serve in the church and community as the Lord opens up doors. 

So many pieces are fitting into place:

1. I'll be serving in some ministry capacity, using 17 years worth of experience to serve those that the Lord has called us to minister to. I'm so glad I finished my ministerial credentialing (through Global University) in early 2012 and started on a master's degree in Intercultural Studies from Moody Theological Seminary.

2. I'll be using my 7 years worth of medical sales experience to help network with companies in South Africa to raise funds for the ministry

3. Through a partnership with Focus on the Family, Jenn will be teaching women how to do hand-stamped jewelry to sell. She started her own business last year doing this exact thing. 

4. Jenn will continue to homeschool the kids when we are in Africa. Mady started Kindergarten last fall

5. We've had quite a few friends and family already make a verbal commitment to support us financially. This is so overwhelming and humbling. We look forward to partnering with many prayer warriors and supporters alike. We covet prayer as much as anything. We need the prayer support. We do have a rather hefty monthly budget to raise before we go, but we are confident that the God who has called us, will provide.

Please pray for my trip, that there will be an absolute confirmation on our calling. We are ready and willing to go and our lives are in His hands. We're walking by faith. Trusting him and believing him every step of the way.

2012 - A Year in Review

We had some friends come up to us recently and say “aren’t you glad 2012 is almost over?”

The answer for us is a resounding “yes.”

2012 has been a year singularly described as a “trial.” These trials have deepened our relationship with God, friends and family. We have sensed the attack of the enemy in some regards and yet we've seen the hand of God move in our lives through it all. For all of you who have strengthened us and encouraged us along life’s journey, we want to say “thank you.” We appreciated all of your prayers and support this past year.

As we reflected back on 2012, we now realize that we went through a lot. Some of the things that we went through were our own decisions, but some things were just "life."

1. We decided to start the adoption process of a little boy from Ghana in January after months of praying

2. Jenn started “Plus One Minus One,” a hand-stamped jewelry business in the Spring. The name of her company comes from the idea of “plus one family member/minus one orphan.” It’s exploded nationally
3. Mark was invited to join the board of directors of ELI (Equipping Leaders Internationally) to facilitate leadership on sustainable work projects in Haiti and Peru
4. Mark finished his Ministerial Credentialing through Global University
5. Mark started a Master’s degree in Intercultural Studies through Moody Theological Seminary in April

·     6. We were introduced to Dr Jim and Beth Blessman from Iowa. They have a ministry in Johannesburg, South Africa feeding 5000 needy children each day (among many other ministries). We are believing the Lord is sending us there to become career missionaries some time this summer. This prayer request started with a vision for Jo’burg that the Lord gave Mark on August 28, 2010. Mark is visiting South Africa Feb 14-26 with another missions team from Iowa

·     7. Jenn and 3 other women started “Minus One Ministry,” an adoption advocacy ministry at our church

·     8. Mark’s dad had a stroke due to cancer on Mother’s Day and we buried him Father’s Day weekend

·     9. Mark was rear-ended in a car accident while on a business trip July 30 injuring his lower back and left shoulder. Total reconstructive shoulder surgery on October 17, along with a week in the hospital. Started a 9 month daily physical therapy regimen. Mark’s still been able to work from home on a limited basis with the University of Illinois Medical Center in Chicago

·     10. We had a great family vacation in the Wisconsin Dells

·     11. Jenn started homeschooling Mady in August. She loves kindergarten and being home with us. She's also working with the twins each day. Sam and Hannah turned 3 in May. Sam potty-trained himself. Hannah is, well, Hannah. All of them ask about Africa on a daily basis.

·     12. Our adoption was permanently cancelled because our agency in Washington closed down Ghanaian adoptions. This was heart-wrenching as we found this out on the night of Jenn's surprise birthday party. Although we thought the $14,000 that we had paid was non-refundable, our agency agreed to at least return $6,200 back to us 

·     13. Mady started Junior Bible Quiz and is thriving at the monthly quiz meets in Springfield. Her team is now 12-0    
14. Jenn had an emergency appendectomy on Thanksgiving Day (and Mady’s 6^th birthday)

·     15. A week later, Mark was hospitalized for 5 days with a nasal staph infection requiring incising of the nose

We trust that you had a great 2012. Here's to an awesome 2013! May you continue to seek the Lord and his direction for your life. We certainly covet your prayers. Thank you.

A Very Careful Love

I've been studying and meditating on the book of Joshua for a few months now. I love the book of Joshua. It's a book of struggle, war, conflict, defeat and victory. Joshua was the second person to lead the Jewish people in their early history. He spent the early part of his life training under Moses and took over for him when the Israelites entered the land of Canaan. Joshua's charisma and skill as a leader are evident from the success of the Jews during his lifetime, and their rapid decline following his death. Indeed, not until Samuel's reign hundreds of years later do the Israelites find a comparable leader. Joshua is a man's man and he is an example of courageous leading and listening to the voice of God.

As I was reading in Joshua 23 this morning, I couldn't help but notice the vibrant language that this Hebrew author penned in verse 11 "So be very careful to love the Lord your God." How we need to carefully love the Lord. So easily we can become sloppy, careless or even apathetic in our love towards him. "So" is a conjunction, joining this thought to the previous textual verses. Verses 9-10 are a reminder that the Lord has fought for them and he has fulfilled his promises. Joshua reminds the Israelites "So" or "therefore" because of this, carefully love God. An exegetical study on this verse was intriguing:

Be careful: take heed, watch, guard, protect, retain
Very: exceedingly, abundant, with force, power, might
Love: to breathe after

We are to literally be very careful how we love and what we love. The love that he's talking about is a love that is like a passionate lover, to breathe after someone in anticipation and exhilaration. I'm called to have that type of love for my Lord. With force, power and might I'm to fight for my love towards God, not allowing anything to deter me from this pathway of love.

 Stumbling Blocks

There are often stumbling blocks that are placed in this pathway of love, stumbling blocks that we must address and have removed. Some of these are the consequences of sin, some of them are the attack of the enemy, while others are stumbling blocks that have been placed in our lives by the poor choices we've made.

Joshua 23:12 tells us that there is a progression on how our love wavers and becomes ultimately deterred from the almighty God.

1. But if you turn away - In a moment, our eyes can deflect off of the love path and glance to the left or to the right (v6). We can turn away from our first love or worse, we can literally look back at the world we've just left, like Lot's wife (Gen. 19:26). Turning away can be a momentary glance, a longing stare, an apathetic and complacent devotion or a defiant stance. There are many things that create a diversion in our lives from the Lord and onto something else.

2. and ally yourselves - The next step after a glance is we begin to set up a relationship with the world. We can befriend and associate ourselves with things other than God. Sometimes we rationalize this relationship and suggest that it's not that we've left the Lord, but that we are pursuing an opportunity that has come across our path. We then begin to love this opportunity more than the one from whom the opportunity has originated (God). Our allegiance becomes horizontal rather than vertical in nature.

3. and if you intermarry - The glance that turned into an allegiance has now become a marriage vow. To love the world and to have a loving relationship with the godless is to deny the Lord and to re-direct our first love to the temporal trash. We can breathe after our God or we can breathe after this world. The apostle John tells us that if we "love the world, the love of the Father is not in [us]" (John 2:15). If the love of the Father is not in us, we lose all of the power, vitality and wisdom that he affords. We lose our lifeline and the source of our strength. We will lose his hedge of protection "then you may be sure that the Lord your God will no longer drive out these nations before you." (Joshua 23:13a). There are things in our lives that we can passionately love more than Him (recreation, friends, family-focus, child-focus etc). How we spend our time, what we spend our money on and what excites us are pretty good indicators of our heart's desire.

4. and associate with them - This term associate is a term that means a business partnership and is yet another aspect of a romance with the world. The Lord tells us to not even have a business relationship or partnership with someone who is apart from Him. He gives us these instructions to preserve us, keep us and save us. The world loves money. The world loves power. The world loves self. But we have a different set of values and love. Our pathway is different from the world. We have an eternal and vertical vision, the world has a temporary and horizontal vision. We can easily love these business partnerships (money and career etc) much more than we love Him.

Canaan - the Promised Land

To deny our relationship with Him and to turn our love, vision, allegiance and partnership to the world will cost us everything. "[These nations] will become snares and traps for you, whips on your backs and thorns in your eyes, until you perish from this good land, which the Lord your God has given you." (23:13b) Our God has promised us a good land! He is fulfilling his promises. He is leading us to the promised land! I don't want to forfeit all that the Lord is doing in my life and has promised to do. This obviously doesn't preclude me from loving and serving others, but I do want to "be very careful to love the Lord [my] God" and nothing else of this world.

An Unsettling Feeling

I just finished reading a rather descriptive discourse on the physical, psychological and emotional atrocities that missionary Richard Wurmbrand endured during the Soviet dictatorship in Romania in the 1960's and 70's. To read of the wicked men that tortured believers for their faith in Tortured for Christ begs the question "Why would a man or a woman stand for Christ, fully aware that there was a strong possibility of an imminent death for them and their family?" The summarized response is that "the love of Christ constrains us." We love him because he first loved us (1 John 4:19). As I sat and pondered this question this morning, the Lord gave me a terrifying realization regarding the fate of mankind.

I've been a believer and follower of Christ nearly my entire life. I received Christ when I was 6 years old, a few years after my mom and brother were killed in a single car accident on Interstate 80 near Atlantica, Iowa. I was with my dad in the vehicle in front of them. After my dad remarried, my step-mom took me to a youth group and the first time I heard the gospel ("good news") message, I surrendered my life to Christ. I was compelled by Christ's love for me, and that he died for me. This understanding floored me. I had never equated death with love. For the previous 3 years, I had equated death with sorrow, sadness and pain. To become an only child with a now single parent was very difficult to withstand. But when I heard the gospel message, I was mesmerized by its clarity, its calling and its commission. I received Christ on my hands and knees in Pastor Triestram's office, not because I understood justification or sanctification, but because I didn't want to go to hell. Christ's love and subsequent death on the cross provided a way of salvation from hell. That was the basis of my conversion as a little boy. When I got up off the floor that night, I felt like a 1000 pound pack was removed from my back. I was already carrying around that much "baggage." Having responded to the love of Christ, I knew I was commissioned to preach the gospel, and that week, I shared the gospel with Matt C. out on the playground (also telling him that he was going to hell if he didn't accept Jesus. Not sure why we weren't friends after that...)

As I sat on the couch this morning and thought about Tortured for Christ, I had a very unsettling awareness sweep over me. It was an awareness of the reality of hell. I have a hard time understanding hell. I also have a hard time understanding eternity. As difficult as it is to comprehend eternity forward, it's significantly more difficult for me to comprehend eternity past, that the triune God-head has always been. Always has been. I digress. It's hard for me to imagine an eternity of wedded bliss with my Savior. I look forward to sharing in the glory of heaven with the saints around the throne, and that I will never, ever, ever have to leave that glorified state. The cosmos will become our playground, ruling over galaxies as priests in His house. For eons upon eons, I will continue to worship my Savior. Literally billions and billions of years infinitely multiplied by billions of years. Never, ever leaving. For all of eternity. I cannot comprehend the magnitude of infinite. Words are bankrupt. "Heaven" by Randy Alcorn is one of my favorite books, can you tell?

However, not everyone will experience the joy of His presence in the New Heavens and the New Earth. Many will lick the flames of the lake of fire for eternity. Imagine being in a place of eternal hellish torment under those exact same [time] parameters. It is quite terrifying. I had a very, very unsettling awareness of the reality of this hell this morning. Never, ever leaving this horrifying place and for all of eternity being in a state of loneliness, decay (Mark 9:48 "their worm does not die, and the fire is not quenched") and anguish for my unforgiven sins (a just punishment) is more than my feeble mind can comprehend. I praise God for his saving grace and that Christ died upon that wooden cross for my sins, the things I've done wrong. My sin, my selfishness, my corrupt nature took him to Golgotha. I will forever be thankful for that simple prayer that I prayed, asking Christ to be my Savior, in the fall of 1982.

To really respond to the salvation story is to respond to the call to witness for Christ, to be his ambassador and to tell others about this saving grace. I cannot comprehend going to hell. I cannot imagine headed to that eternal prison, never to leave.

I have been strengthened to be his witness, a calling worthy of ridicule, persecution or worse. "Lord, thank you for this unsettled feeling. May it never wane cold."

An Inconvenienced Life

First of all, I would like to thank so many of you for praying for us during the last several weeks. It's been quite a ride. I ended up having a nasal procedure performed to remove the infection last Wednesday and I was released on Thursday afternoon with a 2 week supply of antibiotics. The great news is that this type of infection was a very typical infection and sensitive to antibiotics, so there's a 100% chance of complete recovery. The procedure by the facial surgeons was pretty rough (ok, horrible) but I felt immediate relief from it. Nose is pretty much back to normal. The Lord is at work and the enemy is raging. We had our moments of discouragement, but through the promises of God, we were reminded of His goodness and His hedge of protection.

I just finished a great book by David Platt called "Radical Together." This is the sequel to "Radical." The basic premise of the book is that the church needs to be engaged in a strong world view, and that "otherness" will help usher in the kingdom of God. We read in Revelation 7:9:

"After this I looked and there before me was a great multitude that no one could count, from every nation, tribe, people and language, standing before the throne and in front of the Lamb. They were wearing white robes and were holding palm branches in their hands."

In order for Revelation 7:9 to occur, every nation, every tribe, every people and every language needs to be represented. To pinpoint, every nation (in the original Greek, nation is defined as "ethnos" or ethnic group) needs to be represented. Therefore, as Christians and the universal church, it is our responsibility to respond to the gospel call and go "preach the gospel to every person." (Mark 16:15 - the first verse I ever memorized right after I received Christ as my Savior.) The issue is that there are many "ethnos" groups, or ethnic groups that have never heard the name of Jesus. I've heard conflicting numbers of unreached ethnic groups (unreached people groups, or UPGs). Platt indicates there are over 6,000 UPGs still on planet earth. I've read in other articles, of the 16,500 total ethnic groups on planet earth, as many as 7,100 are still UPGs. 42% of the ethnic groups are still UPGs or 2,900,000,000 people! A UPG is defined as an ethnic group with  <2% Christians in that particular ethnic group. The best site for a clear understanding of UPGs is http://www.joshuaproject.net/index.php 

Reverting back to Revelation 7:9, how could there be a representative from "every nation, tribe, people and language" but that Christians respond to the missionary call? We have our work cut out for us. The global church needs to mobilize believers to go into the highways and byways and bring the good-news (gospel message) to unreached ethnic groups. This isn't easy, and it's certainly not convenient. Matter of fact, Platt says that it will be "an inconvenient life." 

Having a vision for UPGs in no way diminishes preaching the gospel and being Christ's ambassador in your own backyard. Matter of fact, as you stand for Christ wherever you live, your vision for people will be contagious and the Lord will lead people from your own community into the mission field as they "catch your contagious vision." We all need to have a vision for UPGs but we also need to have a vision for our neighbor down the block. How do you fulfill both? One example is go on an international missions trip once a year.

I sent Jenn a message yesterday while I was reading this book while waiting for my physical therapy appointment. Here's what I wrote, "I'm getting an assurance in my soul. However, can we agree that no matter what happens, God is leading us even if it means standing in harm's way for the sake of the gospel? Losing our lives or sipping our lattes? This book has confirmed it for me. Any missionary faces these choices of predicaments. We will use wisdom..." 

Without hesitation, I received back a response:

"Let's go."

Two words with infinite meaning, but for us a very finite one. Let's go. Let's go be inconvenienced. Let's go and live outside the world of lattes and lavish materialism. Let's go and stand in harm's way, even if it means death. Let's go and impact people for all of eternity. Let's go and have a generational impact on our genealogy. Let's go and bring the gospel to UPGs. Let's go and be "others-centered." Let's go and respond to the call of God and be obedient to his commissioning. Let's go, and do this...together. 

My wife and I are teaming up. We are relying on Him. We are scared to death, (*ahem) I mean walking by faith. "Lord, continue to lead us, guide us and direct us. This has nothing to do with us. You don't need us, but you do love us, and you do love unreached people. We thank you that our lives are in your hands. We are your willing servants." Amen.

I'm Not Ashamed

During Fusion last Tuesday, I started feeling a little sick. I wouldn't have gone had I thought I was contagious, however we had an absolutely incredible time discussing "Act Like Men" from 1 Cor 16. I believe all that were there were blessed.

I woke up on Wednesday morning with a very sore nose. The kids chided and said that I looked like Rudolf. It was very painful and covered the whole tip of my nose and left nostril. I ended up soaking in the shower several times to relieve the pain and even broke down and took some pain meds (that I'm trying to step-off of due to an accidental pain med addiction that I've acquired). It was so bad that it kept me up at night and give me a nauseating headache. By Friday morning, I couldn't take it anymore and went to Dermatology. The doctor diagnosed me with a subcutaneous cyst and I was prescribed antibiotics. By Saturday afternoon, my vision was being affected and I had ringing in my ears. Towards the end of Mady's 6th birthday party (the one that we had to postpone because of Jenn's emergency appendectomy on Thanksgiving Day), I had my mom take me to the ER.

The ER physician contacted the Facial Surgeon team and they said I had a staph infection, but didn't think that it needed to be incised (cut open and drained). They said that I needed high dosage antibiotics to combat a possible MRSA infection ( a more severe type of staph infection). I was admitted to the hospital on Saturday night and I'm still here. No timeline for release from the hospital in sight. However this has been an absolutely divine experience.

I don't know what the Lord is doing in our lives. People have said we've had a string of bad luck. Some have said the enemy is raging war. Some have said that God is trying to teach us and refine us. If the Lord's trying to get our attention, he has it.

In some ways I feel like I'm in bondage, a prison. We have allowed the Lord to lead us in any way he wants. We've given Him our lives. If he wants us to become missionaries, we are available. If he wants us to stay in Champaign, we will stay and continue to serve as we have. We are just available servants. But from the time that we announced our decision to possibly become international missionaries, and have asked our friends and family to pray for us, we have been attacked on every front. If all of these recent issues were just Cystic Fibrosis (my lung disease) issues flaring up, I'd say that it was just a natural outflow of my disease. However, the attacks have been against both Jennifer and I, and they have been unique conditions for us (an auto accident, back injury, a shoulder surgery, pain med addiction, emergency appendectomy and now a extremely painful staph infection). I don't blame all of our recent issues on "the devil." I've been telling people that I think the Lord is allowing some things to occur in our lives to refine us and mold us. But with this latest episode, I really believe the enemy is raging, because God is at work. He's raging on our bodies and in our minds. He's lying to us and creating some worry, doubts and fears. 

I feel like this hospital room is a jail cell and I've been chained because of my passion for Christ. This is certainly how I feel, again maybe it's the enemy trying to discourage me. Some days he succeeds. I'm thankful the Lord welcomes me back so quickly. I read in Eph 6:19-20, Paul says "Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should." Paul was in prison for the gospel's sake. His prayer request was that he would continuously and fearlessly preach the gospel in every situation. This is my desire. I want to fearlessly and boldly be His ambassador, sharing the good news with anyone that walks in my door. My faith in Christ and giving glory to God has been brought up with each person in some way. To say that I've been blessed is an understatement. Here are some of my encounters:

• A social worker came in to encourage me. Found out her husband's parents were missionaries in Sierra Leone. After 30 minutes of sharing her heart, she left, walking away and saying she was proud of us.
• A Healthcare Tech, "Peyton" has had a troubled past. Piercings and tattoos all over (even a sub-dermal rod in her wrist). She went up to Chicago to go to Mortuary School. Came back to Champaign to go into Healthcare. I'm praying for her salvation
• A nursing student is from eastern Africa and is very excited about our prayer request
• A nurse who isn't a Christian, but was very intrigued that we were seeking to advance "justice and mercy" in a foreign country, is willing to listen
• And many others who have seen my Bible or heard me playing a podcast when they walk in the room

No matter where we are at, we are called to be Christ's ambassadors. To stand fearlessly for Him. Paul tells the church to be fearless, because the natural tendency is to be fear-ful, especially in a scary situation (my nose infection, which is MRSA, could become systemic, entering my blood stream. That could be life-threatening). We need to be willing to share our faith (in a proper way) even if it means rejection or ridicule. The enemy is doing his best to discourage Jennifer and I. We have had our moments that's for sure, but I'm so thankful for this opportunity to lean on Christ and to cast all of my worries, doubts and fears on Him. My life is truly in his hands, and he cares for his children. He spoke to me yesterday from Psalm 121:4-5:

He who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.The Lord watches over you - the Lord is your shade at your right hand.

He's taking care of me and my family. 

I have nothing to worry about.

I am not ashamed.